Write about an area in your life that you’d like to improve
Definitely, my health…not just mentally but physically. I’m a big believer in…”if your body is healthy, you’ll feel healthier mentally“. So I suppose the biggest thing I’d like to improve is working out, eating healthier, and improving mentally with meditation and medication. I’ve been on my meds for over 5 years now, but I went off of them completely for 2 whole years. Which, was a horrible mistake, a horrrriiibbbllleee mistake. At the time I thought “I’m better, I haven’t heard or seen anything in months, the urge to hurt myself hasn’t been there in months, I’m fine, I’ll be fine“. Man, was I wrong. The voices came, and never left, till this day. Now before I use to hear them every once in a while, or see them every once in a while but now, it’s pretty much an everyday thing, seeing them, hearing them. On the days that I don’t see or hear them, I can hear a white noise like static sound, still annoying as fuck, but much better than voices. But I can proudly say that it’s been a month straight now on my medication again. I feel…..good? I don’t feel 100% better and too be honest I’m starting to accept the fact that I will be a Schizophrenic my entire life, I can’t change that, but I can change the way I look at it, and the way I feel about.
First things first, I need to get better physically. I don’t mean, busting my ass everyday for hours at the gym. I’m gonna start it out slow, or I know I won’t keep it up. First I’m thinking, better eating habits. I don’t eat a lot, actually I barley freaking eat. I eat one meal a day, but the time of that meal is around 4AM, every day. So I’m starting a meal planner to get myself started.. something like this weekly planner. TRY and get 3 meals in a day! 3 healthy meals in!
Secondly, I’m going to start yoga, for beginners of course. Nothing crazy like attending hour long hot yoga sessions, but just a little self home yoga at my house. If you know of any good free yoga programs, or apps, let me know! I’ve already gotten my meditation app, called Meditation Timer, it does wonders! I got it at the app store on my iphone! not too sure if it’s available for android users or not!
Over and Out!