So some of you have already read my previous post and know that today just started off pure shit. After writing my post earlier on the couch and checking on Avon, I just felt completely worthless. I moved the laptop to the side, didn’t even close it; and just broke down. Full on sobbing, tears everywhere, nose running like shit, just a completely idiotic mess.
I’m the kind of person that keeps everything in until all of a sudden one thing hits me the wrong way and it all pours out at once.
Sitting there blowing my nose, I hear something in the driveway. I figured it was a damn raccoon or some shit in the trash, but then I noticed it was a car. I guess how sad I was, I didn’t get scared like I would of any other day lol. I walked to the door and opened it up, bloodshot eyes, puffy ass fucking face, snotty nose; to see my girlfriend standing there looking at me.
She immediately “Oh my god, I knew something was wrong babe.” She had a teddy bear with chocolate in her hand as she hugged me and didn’t let me go.
I haven’t felt this badly in a long ass time. So to be honest I was worried today by myself but I didn’t want to tell anyone and make them worry. I’m so lucky I have you baby:) Everything happens for a reason, I’m glad you came home just to make sure I was okay. You make everyday so much easier and worth it. I love you Nichole:) You my girl. <<first time putting your name on my blog.
I’m still sad, don’t know why, but I feel better that Nichole is home, sitting beside me.