I don’t know how many of my followers have a “daily dose” but I sure as hell do. I just have to say, it’s hell, I suck at remembering when to take my medication. You’d think after “needing” this meds for almost 9 years, I would have it down pact when to take my meds. I’ve tried everything, the nice medication alert apps they have, the fancy old grandma M-S pill boxes, writing notes on my pill bottles, everything!
I never remember, and when I do remember it’s like “ahhh i feel awful, I’m a robot aimlessly walking around in this shell”. When I go awhile without taking my medication, the day I take it isn’t the same as being on it for years. I’m slow, my brain takes things in differently, my motions are slower than usual, my eyes feel like they’re moving all over the place, I analyze my surroundings even more than off my meds, I’m zombiefied. Now I know a lot of people who are supposed to take medication say “I feel like a zombie”. I can promise you, this isn’t an excuse, it’s very legit.
Some days I’ll be having the worst day of all, paranoid at my worst, anxious as hell, voices louder than ever, and I still won’t take my meds because I don’t want to be doped up for the rest of the day.
Doctors need to be able to figure out something better than this, I need to be a functioning person, not a functioning zombie.
My Vyvanse makes me wired, My Ativan makes me calm, My Saphris makes me sleepy, My Effexor makes me stupefied and zombie like, What the fuck kind of combination is this shit?
That’s it, I’m a clusterfuck .