Monday Inspirational Blog Share

Letters To The Mind Blog wrote an inspiring post that I stumbled upon this past week that I thought would be a great thing to share with all of you. 

Please take a few moments to check out their blog and be sure to give them a like or a follow while visiting their blog:)


“Guest Posts for September — The Melodramatic Confessions of Carla Louise” -Reblog.

“Hi everyone! For the month of September, I’m looking for people who would like to share any guest posts in regards to experiences with cyberbullying. In regards to these guest posts (these are just some ideas, feel free to write something else), you could discuss: Personal experiences relating to cyberbullying An incident where you knew […]

Check The Post Out Here! The Melodramatic Confessions of Carla Louise

Friday Recap. 

This week started off pretty good. My depression has been getting worse and worse, and my doctor isn’t available until September 6th. I honestly don’t think I can wait that long to be seen, my mom is going to work her “mom magic” and see if she can get me seen earlier, fingers crossed. 

Enough about that, let’s look at the good about this week! 

Nikki got the job with the State!!!! This means a lot of good things for us now:)

Pictures from this week: 

Jynx and Joplin sleeping:) Hazel snuggles:) ​


​video of a wreck we came across on our way home from Baltimore. 

Got a lot of new Pokemon last night:) 
That’s all I really have, probably won’t be posting much today, really not feeling good. 

Today’s Agenda: 

  1. Bank
  2. Market
  3. Dollar Store
  4. Home. 

Hopefully it won’t be too bad. I’ll have Nikki with me, she’ll keep me calm enough to go in places. Good thing I have her on days like these! 

Sorry for a short post, just not up to it today. 


Thursday Challenges: 

First things first, 

I was nominated for “The Happiness Tag” by Stephanie over at Making Time For Me. If you’re not already following her, please go check out her page, you won’t be disappointed! 

Five things that make me happy: 

  1. My Fiancé, Nichole. Nikki makes me the happiest I’ve been in my life. Constantly knowing what to say to make my day 20x better. She’s the most understanding person in my life when it comes to my anxiety and schizophrenia. I’m so thankful for her, in so many different ways. She’s opened my eyes to a lot of different aspects in life, she’s shown me who I really can be in life. Thank you babe, for the nights you held me while I cried, the days I held onto you while my voices went nuts, for all the moments you’ve gone into stores by yourself while I waited in the car and had panic attacks. It’s the little things:). 
  2. My Animals, Hazel Jynx and Joplin. I know a lot of you are probably thinking, your animals? But yes! There are many times when Nikki would be at work and I just needed a shoulder to lean on, Hazel has always been there, full of support. Hazel understands when my head doesn’t feel good, sometimes even before I realize my heads acting up. Jynx and Joplin don’t have much support since they’re kittens, but they sure as hell make me smile! 
  3. My Nieces and Nephews: I grew up pretty much an only child since the age gap between me and my siblings is so massive. My sister has 4 kids, and my brother has 3, a lot of them I consider pretty much siblings. My oldest niece, Marisa is definitely the one I’ve gotten the closest to over the past few years, even though we grew up literally together. My youngest nephew is 5, just the things that he says can put a smile on my face. They’re always happy to see me, and this means more than anyone can imagine! 
  4. Fall: Fall makes me happy for so many reasons! One, this is the season that Nikki and I will be getting married in, next year:)! Two, football season is something Nikki and I celebrate together, going to football games, putting on our jerseys, having super bowl parties, etc. Three, the colors! Since we live tucked up in the mountains, I love being able to look out the window and seeing fields of orange and red. I’m ready for flannels, bonfires, football games, beanies, hot cocoa! 
  5. My Medicine: I know this probably isn’t something a lot of people are going to put in there list but it’s true. If it wasn’t for my medication I wouldn’t be the same person I am right now, and I’m aware of that. I can see and feel the difference when I’m not on them, I’m not happily me. 

Five songs that make me happy: 

  1. “Lean On” by Major Lazer.  Not too sure why this song makes me light up, but I love it. It makes me immediately want to get up and dance around the house. There was a time where I would listen to this song every morning, just to get my spirits in a good feeling type of mood. 
  2. “Wanted” by Hunter Hayes. This song puts a smile to my face the moment I hear it come on. This is mine and Nikkis, “song”. I love hearing her sing along to this song while in the shower, puts a smile on my face immediately. 
  3. “Cut the Cord” by Shinedown. Just the best of this song! The lyrics are too real, I recommend going and reading the lyrics:) 
  4. “No K” by Tech N9ne. The beat and lyrics! Techs music is usually gonna make me happy, but No K and handful of others will be at the top of my list. 
  5. “Sun Daze” by Flordia Georgia Line. Reminds me of summer so bad, brings back memories with Nikki:) We use to rock out to this song in the summertime lol. 

My nominations: 

Again, thank you Stephanie from Making Time For Me for this nomination! 


Some Changes:) 

Added some new changes to my wordpress. Looks a lot better if you ask me! Did a new theme, new colors, a lot of new widgets! Finally getting the hang of it, lol.

CheckList For Today:

  1. Workout✔️
  2. Eat Breakfast✔️
  3. Clean House✔️
  4. Clean up dog poopy and cat liter✔️
  5. Weed Wack Hazels kennel…
  6. Eat Lunch
  7. Meet my dad at my house
  8. Jump Nikkis truck 
  9. Put transmission fluid in Nikkis truck
  10. Hangout with Nikki. 
  11. Eat Dinner
  12. Go play quarters at Nikkis cousins! Last time we won $6.75! Hopefully we get lucky today! 
  13. Watch some more of “Touch” 
  14. Go to Bed! 

Now; I’m going outside to weed wack our dogs kennel where she goes potty.


30 day writing challenge day 4. 

A look back

You're not alone in this world.

“Write about someone who inspires you.”

This is definitely where I’m going to write about my mom. She is my inspiration, my rock. We haven’t had the best of luck getting along in the past, but I was a moody teenager with a lot of problems. Aside from all the mean hateful things I said to her, she never left my side. She was the ONLY person to visit me everyday when I was in the mental hospital. What inspires me about her, she never gives up. She has a dream, she follows it. 

     When my mom was younger she married her first love, had two kids and was happy. Her first husband became abusive of her and her children. He wouldn’t allow my mom to visit or talk to family, wouldn’t allow her to go to school, or have a life. It was the 50s…

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Memory Loss? 

Old Old Post. Love looking back at how differently I felt about mental health and even myself when I first starting blogging.

You're not alone in this world.

I feel like ever since I got out of the psych ward, my memory is fucked. I literally can remember being 3 years old up until about 12, then things start getting fuzzy. At first I thought maybe it was from all the drugs I did in high school, but then why wouldn’t I remember before high school? Maybe it’s my medication, maybe it’s because I have 3 different voices plus my own thoughts going on in my head that I don’t have time to remember things. I’ve been with my fiancé for 3 1/2 years now and she’ll say something like “remember when we first go together and we…” And I don’t remember it at all, it’s insane. I’ve read before that people with mental “issues” are more likely to suffer from memory loss than a “normal” person would. I’ve tried mediation to become one with my inner self…

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Wednesday Check-In. 

So far this week has been going pretty good. Not a lot has been done this week, Monday we went to Baltimore, Tuesday we just kinda hung out, and today is just starting!

Blog Stats: Yesterday was my best day for this week so far for views. Monday was my best day for comments. No new followers yet this week. 

The countries that have visited my page this week so far; 

United States with 34 views. United Kingdom with 5 views. New Zealand with 2 , Belgium,  India, Turkey and Italy with 1 view each. 

I’ve been noticing a lot of my comments that I get from you guys have been going into “spam” folder! Not too sure why, but no worries, I’ve been finding them!! 

I’ve realized that doing a Wednesday Mid-Week Check-In is great, but I’ll also be doing a “Wordless Wednesday” where I’ll share mainly memes or quotes! I’ve seen a lot of people I follow doing this, and I think it’s a great idea. 

Mentally: This week hasn’t been too bad, yesterday was probably the worst for me mentally. Woke up in a pissy mood, voices on high and just very tense feeling. 

Anxiety: So far this week, no anxiety attacks, and no panic episodes. Let’s keep it that way for the rest of the week! 

Depression: I still feel that I should go back on my Effexor. I set up an appointment with my doctor to talk this over and see what he thinks is best for me to do. 

Schizophrenia: So far only one bad day with voices. Again, let’s keep it that way! 

Medicine: I’ve done really good this week so far with taking my meds. I took my anxiety meds, and nightmare meds on Monday. Tuesday is when I woke up with awful voices and decided to start taking my Saphris again, it taste so awful but really does help. So far this morning I’ve taken my anxiety meds✔️, ADHD meds✔️, and my Saphris✔️ for voices. 

Currently: Watching the new episodes of Law & Order SVU on Netflix and waiting for Nikki to wake up so we can get our work out on! 15 minute elliptical, 25 sit ups, 20 crunches, 20 bicycle pumps, 20 sec plank, 25 leg lifts, and I should be good! Nikkis up to 45 min elliptical and so many more sit-ups, crunches, etc. 

No Soda or sugary drinks in over 2 weeks now✔️ 

I did break down and got Five Guys the other day while in Baltimore, who can turn down the best burgers and fries? We don’t have a Five Guys anywhere near our town, so when I spot one I’m like “oh my god, it’s a five guys”! But I stayed strong and still had a water to drink!