Night 🌙 

Currently watching Pirates of the Caribbean waiting for Nikki to get out of the shower. Figured I’d stop in and say hello, I know I haven’t been posting as much and I hate it. I’ve been swamped with work and the holidays kept me away pretty much. I work tomorrow Saturday Sunday and Monday but I’m still planning on doing everything and will be posting all about it tomorrow so keep an eye out. I have a lot to talk about so that’s cool I guess. 

Hope everyone has a nice night, talk tomorrow. 

👽 ✌🏼🤘🏼 👽 

My weekend. 

Was pretty nice and very much well needed. I’m still doing pretty iffy in the mental category but we’re not gonna talk about that shit today, today’s about my weekend. 

I’m going to share my Christmas Presents with y’all and some videos from Christmas. My vlog will be loaded tonight, since it’s coming from my cellphone camera it’s kind of confusing for me lmfao but it’s already filmed n everything. 

My Presents From Nikki: 

My new engagement ring:) (my old one needed an upgrade) I’m not into diamonds so Nikki did amazing. 
A new contour pallet, makeup brush, n two eyeshadow pallets, with some makeup remover. 
A fountain for my yoga n meditation sessions:) 
Another oil Diffuser! 
Hershey’s Smores Set with new mugs:) 
A new blanket! 
New set of rings. 
A DIY candle set! A candle:) 
My WoodWick candle:) 
Not pictured: a crockpot, and a ton of candy! 

Presents From My Family and Nikki’s Family: 

PS4 from Nikki’s mom for us. 
​Present from my niece Marisa. No pictured: Kylie Jenner Lip Kit. 
From my niece Kayla, I got a Lush Sex Bomb for the bath, face scrub and Anastasia Beverly Hills Liquid Lipstick.
​in the video my mom got me VS pajamas, underwear set, slippers, VS perfume n lotion, socks, gloves, 2 sweaters, a blanket scarf. My nephew got us candles and inscents. My brother got us 2 Xbox live cards. My sister gave us $50, my uncle gave us $50 and my pap gave us $20.
My dad got us this new coffee table that opens up and has a counter space to eat off of. 
Videos from Christmas: 

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To Everyone…

A lot has been going on in our house and with our family. I didn’t even realize I missed my own first Christmas Blog Party. I’ll be trying to have a New Years one instead. I also have to upload the vlog of Nikki and I telling our answers to your guys questions. 

I promise it’ll all be coming soon! As soon as I realized what day it was I jumped on my phone to write this. I really am sorry, just dealing with life right now. I’m really bummed about the Christmas Party 🎉 when it was my first and all this came up. Things happen for a reason, gotta keep saying that. 

Mother, I am depressed-

Amazing post, a definite must read.

Randoms by a Random

image.pngI told my mother I was depressed,
And she said- baby, it’s just the blues,
Just like every song has an ending,
This one would waltz right through.
It’s been three years- I’m still “blue”

I told my father I was depressed,
And watched the tears stream down his cheeks,
With a heart heavy with guilt, I said-
Daddy, I will make it through.
I was depressed, yet the one to show strength.

I told my friends I was depressed,
They said- girl! You just need a man;
How could I handle another human soul,
When I could barely deal with mine.
I was depressed, not in need of a man.

I told my brother I was depressed,
He asked if I was bleeding then?
He’s heard girls can go a tad bit off,
When their time of the month appeared.
I said- I’m not bleeding… He didn’t hear.

Dear…

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My First Vlog?

Ah, so it’s EXTREMELY short, as I really didn’t know what to talk about and I was hella nervous. I’m really trying to “open my comfort zone” on my blog and really get into vlogging:/ I’m not going to do anything crazy like upload it to youtube or anything like that.

But, it’s a question and answer that I’m gonna be doing here in a few days with Nikki on a vlog. So if you have any questions for nikki and me or both of us, pleaseeeee ask away!

So without further a do…here ya go. (nikki made fun of me for the vlog, she could tell i was nervous lol)​

​ sorry it’s so fucking shaky!! I had to end up taking video with my phone bc WordPress wouldn’t allow video from my computer unless I got the premium plan? Duh. 

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Hey Everyone, first let me apologize for literally not posting a damn thing in over a week. A lot has been going on with family and also our friends. One of our closest friends, Evenn, his sister passed away over last week from Cancer at 22 years old. The family has been in and out of town to visit. My cousin gave birth to her second little boy over the week. Our other best friend April (Evenn’s girl friend) had her birthday over the week. Nikki and I have been Christmas Shopping a lot and I’ve done my fair share of work this week as well. Nikkis truck broke down a week after getting it back from the shop that just did $2,100 of work into it, so we’ve been borrowing my moms truck. Our vehicle luck is fucking awful, I’ve yet to get my new car, still.

With all that being said, the past couple weeks have been insane, and I needed a little break from the world. I am back, and plan to stay back now haha. I also have 3 different rough drafts typed up for the guest blogs that I’m really looking forward to doing.

The first rough draft is for Tabbi, which will be finished either today or tomorrow, and then sent over! The second is for Stephanie, which will probably be done by this weekend and then sent over for some proof reading. The third is for a blog that I am not going to mention until my guest blog theme is decided between her and I. Since this will be my first time guest blogging, I’m super duper excited lmfao.

Again, I’m sorry to everyone that I talk to on a daily basis on here, just a lot of shit happened all at once and I’m still kind of wrapping my head around most of it. Today is my “catch-up” day, working on some needed work projects, my rough drafts for guest blogging, catching up on “Once Upon A Time” because I am so incredibily behind and it’s driving me nuts. I think my niece is also going to be coming up to talk and hangout, she comes up mainly twice or three times a week. We’ve gotten a lot closer over the past few years and I’m so happy we did. We were best friends growing up and then kind of became two differently people. She’s kind of stuck upish, and very indepent person? I’m more of a “fuckit” go with the flow type of person, so at the teenager years, we didn’t clash too well. But now we’re both adults and know how much we mean to each other and we both have a common hobby so that helps. lol.

Well, time for me to end this post and start “catching up” with my damn life.

Oh, good news. I started my new meds about a week ago, I’ve been keeping up with them. Voices aren’t gone completey but not as intense I guess I could say. But woah there, guess who’s gained 15 fucking pounds in a week? This gal right here, helloooo! haha I am now up to 167 after working my ass off to get to 130. Lmfao my weight is constantly up down up down up. The biggest I’ve gotten was 190 and my Junior year in HS when I first got out of physch ward and wad drugged to hell n back. I immediatley began dropping weight and got done to 160’s when I met Nikki, then back up to 180s and then back down to 150s and then I finally started gettign my shit together and went down to 130. I am now at 167 and I feel the jeans getting a wee bit tight around the love handle area 😦 Oh well, voices/depressed/skinny OR novoices/happyasfuck/chunckabutt

I say option two.

All for me right now but not for today, peace n love.