31 Day Blog Challenge; Day 27.

Day 27: What Makes me feel better, always. 

  1. My fiance. Just venting to her, listening to her bitch with me instead of against me. It’s great.
  2. My dog, she’ll hug me and lick my tears away when my voices are bad.
  3. Salty Chocolate, it never fails to make me smile at least a little bit.
  4. Music in general. The music I tend to listen to is the music that normal people think is “off-putting”. Music I can relate to isn’t your average joe maw n paw type of music.
  5. Meditating.
  6. Marijuana.
  7. Funny Movies with stupid comedy. Like Super Bad, Pineapple Express shit like that.

So, what can seem to always make you feel better? Whether you’re angry, sad, depressed, pissed off, or disappointed, what’s your secret to feeling better? Let me know in the comments below, and I’ll have to give them a try!

Eating Disorder Recovery. Important message to all, and an amazing true story. *reblogged*

If you or someone you know suffers with an Eating Disorder, I strongly recommend reading this amazing post by someone who is recovering from her Eating Disorder, slowly but surely and she’s kicking it’s ass. I’ve been following her on here for quite some time, from what I’ve seen, she’s improving so much and this post just put the cherry on top. I don’t know this girl personally, but props to you and please keep up the awesome work, we’re seriously cheering for you. Please please, go check out her page “Seremdipitous” and please read the post I’m sharing below, definitely worth every second.

“Dear Past Emma: Hi. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen your face. Your thin, emaciated, smiling face that was really a facade that you put on for the world to pretend like everything was alright. This picture was taken just after your twentieth birthday, which you celebrated in a horrifically special way: in […]

via A Letter to Myself — seremdipitous

Rant.

Lately I’ve been hearing a lot of criticism towards Schizophrenia. Don’t get me wrong, I understand that each and every person is entitled to their own opinion, but oh dear lord some of you people really irk my nerves.

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For example, the other day a person decided to put her/his two cents into “what Schizophrenia is like to a Schizophrenic”. Now, I totally understand that I don’t walk around with a sign on my back saying “I’m a schizophrenic”. That’s what is really fucked up, this person knows that I AM a schizophrenic, but still decided to “guess” what it’s like for a Schizophrenic.

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She/He says they believe that our “voices” are a part of us, apart of our soul trying to “climb” out of us, but “us” is the dominant part of our soul, that’s why we’re who we are today.

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I just kind of sat there with the blank expression on my face and just kind of nodded before changing the subject. I didn’t speak up, because what the hell was i going to say without expressing what my “voices” tell me .

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I can’t believe this theory she/he has proposed. Due to the fact that my “voices” are not something I would ever imagine myself being or acting like. The things I hear on a day to day basis are things “normal” people can’t even imagine, thing’s I can’t even imagine, and I hear it constantly. I couldn’t stand up and start yelling “NO NO NO, WHY WOULD I EVER THINK ABOUT GRUESOME, AWFUL, THINGS?!” “THAT’S NOT ME, THAT’S NOT WHO I AM, YOU KNOW THIS!” But just saying that sounds crazy?

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Now I’m not saying that every day my voices are chatting up a storm in my head about murder and bloody scenes, but I’d also be lying if I said my head didn’t come up with fucked up shit. But there are still good days, where my voices actually seem “ok” with me, talk about nice things, cheer me on in life, and help me with day to day things. BUT THAT’S ON A GOOD DAY!

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If my voices were constantly positive, then hell yeah maybe I’d be able to accept this proposal on Schizophrenia. The fact that my voices aren’t ALWAYS the nicest, I can’t believe that this theory is even a possibility, I won’t believe it.

\I will admit, I don’t know EVERYTHING there is to know about Paranoid Schizophrenia, but I do my research, I read books, watch documentaries, and follow tons of Schizophrenic sites on WordPress and Pinterest. I don’t really read it, to see if I’m a “normal schizophrenic”, I totally understand we’re all different, our voices are different, our thoughts, emotions, etc. I honestly read it just to see if there is any hope that my “voices” one day will never be there.

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Until I find a post that I find reasonable for ME, or something I find “ok” for ME to believe and have hope in, than I will.

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But for right now, my voices are my “voices” whether it’s “my soul’s”, my thoughts, or straight up my head making up shit, oh well it’s me. I can’t help that I’m a Schizophrenic anymore than you can help if your indian/white/black/straight/gay/american/etc.

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Every stigma in this damn world needs to end, whatever it is, just stop.

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Sunshine Blogger Award! 

A big thanks to Stephanie over at Making Time For Me, for nominating me for this awesome award! Stephanie is definitely a great blogger worth a follow!
The Rules: 

  • Thank the person who nominated you.
  • Answer the questions from the person who nominated you!
  • Nominate other bloggers for this award.
  • Write the same amount of questions for the people you nominate!
  • Notify the bloggers of their nomination!

Questions From Stephanie:

  1. Are you where you thought you would be at this stage in your life? Yes and no. Yes because I pictured myself in love with someone who means a lot to me, that’s a definite yes. But no on the education and career level. I thought I’d be graduating from college this year and starting my career as a teacher. But that’s just one set back! 
  2. What is your favorite country to watch show up in your stats? Definitely India, Sri Lanka, and Germany. 
  3. What is one tip you have for bloggers? I always use this tip, but to be yourself on your blog! Don’t worry about what other readers may think, don’t worry about the amount of followers. Worry about you and your blog. 
  4. How do you choose who to give awards to? I actually go to my notifications, the top people to last like/comment/share etc, get a nomination! 
  5. What is your favorite holiday? Definitely Christmas. 
  6. Are you spiritual/religious? Ah, I am not religious. I believe if you put out good, you’ll receive good. Same with after lives, if we do good here, our next life will be better. I don’t believe in any of the religions I’ve  learned about.  It’s not that I’m not educated in religion, I graduated from a Christian High School taking bible class my whole life. I just don’t believe in it. 
  7. What is your favorite thing to do on a Saturday morning? Well, I work on the weekend morning and that’s definitely not a favorite thing! But I love spending time with my fiancé before she heads off to work! 
  8. What is your ideal breakfast? Cinnamon French Toast with butter n syrup, stringy hash browns, sausage n bacon, scrambled eggs, and toast with jam. Bomb! 
  9. Did you go to your high school prom? Yes, 10th, and 12th grade.
  10. Do you plan, write down thoughts, ideas or stats for your blog? I seriously try to! I like to keep tabs on all the things I’ve already written, how many likes they recieved, just to get an idea of what my readers would rather read! 

My Questions For You To Answer: 

  1. Besides blogging, what’s your favorite hobby?
  2. Favorite currently watching tv show?
  3. Do you believe in Aliens?
  4. If you had to be stuck in a foreign country with no money or translator,  which country would you pick?
  5. Would you ever travel the world?
  6. The craziest experience you’ve ever had? For example: Sky diving, swimming with dolphins.
  7. Favorite sea animal?
  8. Have you ever been to the ocean?
  9. If you have a mental illness, which one do you have? When did you get diagnosed?
  10. Are you ready for summer, or want winter to come back?!

My Nominees: 

 

 

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Reblogged: “Eeeep! No Awareness! Except…ALL THE AWARENESS!”

Originally posted on HazelHillBoro! Definitely worth a read! 

“Mentally ill people find themselves in a weird paradox. May is national “mental health awareness month,” and I don’t really know what to do with this.  OF COURSE I want people to recognize mental illness as a real thing, and OF COURSE I want them to know more about bipolar disorder. OF COURSE I’m sick of […]

http://hazelhillboro.com/2016/05/06/eeeep-no-awareness-except-all-the-awareness/

Reblogged: “When The Bluebird Sings” (Trigger Warning -Suicide)

Originally posted by A Journey With You, if you’re not already, please go follow her blog! 

I came across her post today and had to share it. For someone who suffers from a Schizophrenia, I could relate to this post so much, it also made me even shed a tear. 

Please take the time if you or you know someone who suffers with Schizophrenia, I promise it is worth the read! 

“The bluebird is a messenger of the Divine. They fly side by side with angels. (From Universe of Symbolism) I just hung up the phone from talking to my brother. One of his friend’s, daughter also had schizophrenia. Sing me a song bluebird. I say had, because she found a gun, found the cartridge, put […]

http://ajourneywithyou.com/2016/04/15/when-the-blue-bird-sings-trigger-warning-suicide/

Reblogged: “Genetics and a Book Recommendation”

Originally posted on Mental Truths, if you’re not already, definitely go check out their page, amazing writer and awesome rants/stories/posts! 

This is one of the amazing post that I’ve came across and felt I needed to share! 

Take a look!! 

   

 

“I woke up feeling blank as usual and lay in bed in this robe that, honestly, I’m getting sick of feeling on my skin. I spent twenty minutes . . . a half hour . .  . an hour staring at the wall listening to thoughts pass behind my eyes that made no sense at […]

https://mentaltruths.wordpress.com/2016/04/09/genetics-and-a-book-recommendation/

Reblogged: “Stigma and Mental Illness”

Originally posted by Annie over at “Gentle Mental Annie”.  If you’re not already, please go check out her blog! She does amazing poetry and an awesome writer! 

“Mental disorder has stigma attached to it. People think of movies they have seen with dangerous disorderly mental characters in them. News reports inevitably bring attention to anyone’s mental diagnosis, when they commit a bizarre or dangerous crime. They neglect to say that most people with that particular mental disorder are not violent and do […]

http://gentlementalannie.com/2016/03/17/stigma-and-mental-illness/

Reblog: “How Social Media Can Effect Mental Illness”

Originally posted on https://flyawaygrl.wordpress.com

“I recently had to take a break from Facebook. Most people enjoy posting pictures of their family, good times, status updates on relationships and accomplishments. I sure do. It’s a fun and engaging way to connect with friends and family. It’s also good for finding new friends and groups you’re interested in joining. Twitter, Snapchat, […]

https://flyawaygrl.wordpress.com/2016/03/08/how-social-media-can-effect-mental-illness/
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Reblog: “Thinking of the past”

  

 Originally posted on https://iammyownisland.wordpress.com

“I know when my mind is in overdrive I rehash every mistake I’ve ever made. I need to focus on where those mistakes have landed me… Molded me into the person I am today. I am a survivor of mental illness. I have taken on demons and won so far every day. I got this […]

https://iammyownisland.wordpress.com/2016/03/07/thinking-of-the-past/

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